Friday, December 14, 2012

Rationality ...... and the heart

Alright.... It's official now.... I can no longer claim rationality - for, beyond all reason ... I have succumbed to my urges....

Its not often that i retire to the luxuries of blogging ... and as i have already mentioned ... its only in the event when i am a seratonin riddled mess. But of late, i've come to question that . Is it really bad being seratonin riddled? Of course, someone with a stronger conviction would obviously  second the notion of the disparity in the judgement of one under the "influence" (of seratonin i mean). But then again, we are all humans and, somewhere along the line , we all falter, and we are faced with the paroxysm of conflict. We are plunged deep into the throes of that which we feared most, Only to discover that our judgement was misconstrued, There was nothing at all to fear. So is the case with the effects that seratonin and dopmine induces. It's referred to in lore as "love" . A concept that escapes the masses, but which is an excruciatingly misused term in circadian speech. A word that is thrown around with such scant regard that you might think it was something of a common place.

Oft have i expressed my hate of "love", and i was justified in my stance. Up until recently, though. A stance i've had to rethink. There is only so much i can say when i'm trying to be ambiguous.

A study of human nature revels that all men are hypocrites.(so are all women, but thats besides the point). And it is this hypocritical nature that lets us wake up in the morning and not feel guilty at the constantly wavering priorities in life. There's not more than a handful of "ideal" beings who are so absolute in their priorities that they are unmoved and unchanged by happenings about them. We usually  don't ono who these people are because they are uncharacteristically boring. I mean, lets face it... adaptability is the single most unique thing that we as RATIONAL beings posses, and to trade that  for a well-strcuctered monotonous existence just seems so mundane and IRRATIONAL ...

Well, so much for that .....
I still remember, when i first started blogging, there was so much to write about, so much to share, so much to express... But priorities change and blogging becomes a luxury .... unless of course youre an actor worth crores who can dedicate time on a regular basis
On that note, i'll take my leave.

Sunday, November 11, 2012

Gaussian Curves... and random electrical noises

I am getting really sporadic with these posts here.... I always make up my mind to post with such continuum that my skills don't get sullied with time, but ALWAYS to no avail.

Anyway, I'm at home now, seemingly jobless and seratonin riddling my brain, and i have loads to say too, but i'm pretty sure i won't say them in the least bit.
Ever since 3 weeks ago my rational faculties have been in a state of struggle with my baser carnal urges.  The things I've done in the past three weeks have surprised even myself.... and the people i've met are just amazing.....

In the three semesters i've been in college ... (and thats clearly not a lot) ... working with Technites, for me , has been amongst the best experiences ever.... partly because of the things i worked on.. mostly because of the things i learnt.... i would like to dedicate a post to that .. sometime later .... so i'm just going to leave it at that....

Well, to those of them that do understand the metaphorical undercurrent of the title of the post know that 'vexed i am of late, with feelings worthy of cognizanze' and i have noticed that , the only time i retire to the comfort of my blog is when i am precisely in this state,.... seratonin riddled, confused faculties and looots of time on my hand.....
Troubled i am cause i am forced to be vague in what i'm saying.... I can't as well be brazen and state what i want to in ooohhh so many words for my twisted psychological frameworks dictates that i be discreet , non descript , on the down low about things that will most  definitely get me into trouble ...
Now i'm just rambling...

I think i'll take my leave for now and gather my senses before i can think about what to post next 

Friday, May 11, 2012

After an year

Wow... feels good to be back here.... writing again.... It's been an year almost since i last came here..... suddenly things seem very different....
An year at NITK is up.... and i can say with utmost certainty that i am none the wiser from my previous post (I am not kidding)....
Anyway, It has been a heeluva ride, this first year at NITK. The people i've met are very interesting and i am getting boring with my bland writing style.... time for some spice....

When we entered as first years engulfed in naiveté  , some more than the others, engineering was presented as a herculean task.... a challenge placed before us whose intricacies were unfathomable at the time.....

Engineering, an entity that was built up to be a monster facing whom should have been dreadful..... but surprisingly engineering is the best thing that has happened till date .....
The relief of engineers can be understood from a simple incident..... We, as 12th or 10th graders, wouldn't dream or dare switching on the TV or the computer a week before and during the exams or test..... well guess what..... At NITK, we watched an hour long episode of GOT and two other episodes of Korra the day before the Mech finals... Surprisingly it wasn't nagging at our conscience.....

Secondly, I remember when i was in the 7th grade, whilst competing with one of my best friends, i remember shedding tears for 1 mark..... Each mark lost was painful... VERY PAINFUL.... in stark contrast... at NIT, we never cared for that one mark (except for a few, who just can't be changed), all we cared about was cutoffs. Ah, good times......

There's a lot more to NITK that i haven't yet talked about.... LOT MORE..... but i am immensely tired now and sleep engulfs me..... i must retire for the day..... More to come....